Time Flies

Wow! Didn't realize how long it has been since I last posted. Time seems to have a way of slipping by but does it really?

The past 6 months or so has been a time of change and rather than reflect and post - I have just pushed through without any real self-reflection. I think that is called denial. Change in and of itself doesn't bother me. It is actually a bit comforting for me -but only when I have structure around that change. This time around it has been less defined. I started a new job - one that I know I can enjoy - but the structure is missing. It is even more vague now since my hiring manager (and friend) has left for a different company.

Lately, I find myself wanting to cry. Not the most confidence instilling reaction. When those tears threaten- I am not usually in a place to allow them to flow or even to dwell on analyzing the why. So - stuff away. But I think my tear bucket is full and needs a release. But I don't have time - too much to do.

Separation from ... CATS?

Not quite what you may be thinking. Recently I was away from home for 12 days. Due to circumstances my roommate also was away during those days so I asked friends to feed the cats. These friends are very special because neither especially like cats. But I guess they like me! It was difficult for me to be away that long knowing that the cats would have minimal human interaction but so grateful for my friends. So now that I am home (and so it is roomie) it is interesting to watch these four-legged wonders. They know which of us is "their" mommy (1 is mine and other is Sandy's)- they rarely stray more than 5 feet from either of us. It makes me think of my relationship with God. See- He never leaves me but I stray all the time- I take Him for granted. What if for even a short period of time (3 hrs?) He left me? When He returned, I am sure I would be sticking to His side! I really don't want to experience this separation!